what happens when ur prayer comes true?

many times when i pray i don't picture what it's like to have it come true...
was feeling frustrated and sad last nite...and a thought struck me. my prayer has come true.
*flash back* was talking with a friend, and she mentioned how God is now a vital source in her life...that without reading His words she won't have the energy to go through the day...after talking to her, i thought to myself....how wonderfully would that be? wouldn't it be awesome if i can rely on God like that? that if i don't read His word i'd feel it in my bone? and so i asked God...to give that to me. after all, that is in accordance to His will :)
and like a tree planted by the stream of life, i was happy, as i read His words everyday...until things got busy...school, piano, theory, interview, and i neglected His precious words for an entire three days...then i felt it. i felt weary, i felt empty, i felt sad, i felt like all the energy inside of me got zapped away....and then it hit me. God answered my prayer. i was happy and healthy and growing when i was getting the water from the precious stream...but when one day i decided that i was too busy to take a drink, something happened. sure, for the first day it didn't seem like anything is different...but the world takes energy like it evaporates water...and i die a little. the change is so settle, that i barely noticed...when the third day rolls around, and i found myself waking up from a dream filled with....murder. of all things...i don't quite remember the dream, but i remember it being really scary...and i know the reason why.
God answered my prayer. and made me dependent on Him :) and now...for my own sake...i should place my roots back into the water...so i can be whole again....unless i want to wither away and die...but i don't think i want to go there ;P
....it's funny how many pple ask for things...but are never quite prepared when it actually happens :) but still, i'm glad He listened to me, and granted my wish :) and now it's my turn, to receive it to the fullest ^^

no more msn

hrm...so i've always took msn for granted...even tho i don't really go online that much, but the little green icon is always at the right hand corner waiting to be opened.....
but but, yesterday i tried to sign in and a message popped up and said that i need to update to a newer version in order to continue...so i did that. but after installing it, error messages kept popping up! i tried uninstalling 7.0 and back to 6.2 but now 6.2 won't even let me sign in! so now i'm msnless...well, i guess i could use the web messenger..but that really sucks =(

....*sad*

never know what you get until it's taken away~ oh, the hard lessons in life~