if a tear can save one, i'd cry a thousand times and more...

saw a video on how animal furs are taken from them.....
i should have known...a world more cruel than survival is that of profitability ...

had to close my eyes...cuz i just can't bear to look...
was dumbfounded...cuz i forgot how to react...

there is something fighting within me that says it cannot be!
and another that found it difficult to breath knowing that it exist in this world....

if me...a mere human had found such acts unbearable...what of God?

no, i do not shake my fist at the Prince of Peace and ask "why?! why do You let this happen?" i'm not worthy of even asking such question...
but....God with all the magnificence, perfection, holiness, purity....the One who knows all the sees all...oh how He would have been hurt to see us behave like that...

God had created men to have dominion over the earth...to rule over all the creatures...our charge was to take care of the precious things yet we exploit...and we hurt...we manipulate...and we kill.........and God cries.

was driving home and the images keep flashing through my head...it was unbearable...and i couldn't do anything ..... i have never feel so helpless...and i cried... and when i got home, i got down on my knees and said to the Lord, "forgive us...for we not know what we do..."

so i went skating last week on the rideau canal~ probably the last time for this winter, considering how the winter is seemingly over :P

i don't get cuts/bruises that much......uh...let me rephrase that one ;P..... i don't get lasting cuts/bruises much~~~~ especially my "much" involvement in sports :P anyway, this time, i skated a little too fast...lo and behold, i tripped and landed knee first without any attempt to block the fall...when i first hit the ice, i thought it was over!! and for what felt like the longest time, i couldn't move my legs...and when i did try to get up, i got the comment that i looked a new-born gazelle trying to walk....kee hee hee~~ and i didn't even have to ice it cuz it was already frozen!

the first night it was really really red and swollen, but now i have this BIG purple bruise on my right knee ^O^ this is actually quite interesting considering how i don't usually get them~ i even took pictures of it!! ^^ it reminded me of the time where i landed chin first on gravel when i ran for first base in softball ^___^ shoulda taken a picture of that one!!!!

it's quite fun to walk crippled for a couple of days i'd say :P makes me thankful of what i normal take for granted :P haha~ and the picture below~ a little sparrow, once found that i'm hurt, flew over and gave me a purple band-aid :D :D :D muahah

sometimes i wish...i can just disappear....

....what a wonderful thing that would be...

maybe you belong to God and not anything inside of you...

As the deer panteth for the water
So my soul longeth after Thee
You alone are my heart's desire
And I long to worship Thee

You alone are my strength, my shield
To you alone may my spirit yield
You alone are my heart's desire
And I long to worship Thee

You're my friend and you are my brother
Even though you are a king
I love you more than any other
So much more than anything

I want you more than gold or silver
Only you can satisfy
You alone are the real joy giver
And the apple of my eye



was playing this song over and over again....then the music became blurry...
and i suddenly remembered....how i missed Thee...

random favorites~

there's one question that i truly dislike to answer....and that is "what music do you like?"
is it cuz i hate music? heck no ;P but what i like is usually pretty random...and most of the time i can't name the artists that i like...nor the song that i enjoy ;P
i can hear a melody and say, "yeh! i like that song!" but who's it by and what's its title? ...i'd be speechless ;P
i don't enjoy a certain genre...i don't enjoy a certain mood...sometimes i like a song and found out it's actually heavy metal...other times i like a song and found out it's country...ooohhh...other times i enjoy listening to love songs by male vocal...other times female hiphop...i like kiddish songs, and sometimes operatic~
nope, can't pinpoint ;P just once in a while, random favorites pop up~ and i smile ;P

new random favorites? "Yes You Have" by Leeland ^_~

click and enjoy~

archives not

so in my society and tech class we were discussing topics concerning information archives...
the main concern is that technologies are developing so quickly that equipments are becoming obsolete faster than ever. From a long term point of view, this can be pretty scary since information kept on cchanging and old equipments are lost after merely two decades... :(
where photo papers can keep an image for 200 years, if picture are stored on a cd, the disk will start degrading (under favorable condition) after 25 years! :(
the idea is pretty shocking...makes me think about how miniscule we human really are...and how we're truly like mists...appear and then vanish just like that...and will anyone remember us? probably not...not by the way we're doing things now....in 1000 years, the new civilization, if they still exist, will have more information on the people 1000 years before us with the writings on stones than us...with our...FABULOUS digital technologies....begs the question....are we progressing? or regressing?

....all this thoughts derived not only from that lecture...but...oh....how i learn to love and hate first-hand experience....on one hand, it makes us understand and really appreciate....on the other...it hurts :(
what am i talking about? well...i lost a whole bunch of emails...yes...hotmail inactivated my acount (ritatsai@hotmail.com) cuz i forgot to sign on for a month and they deleted every single email that was in it... :( not their fault...i don't use that account anymore...but that was my first email account....and even though now it just receives junk mail, it contained in the folders, many many many many many of my memories...*sad* ...yes...in the universe that's ever so great, i'm sitting here pouting about my lost emails...yes...i'm whinning about something so finite in an inifinite existence...something so insignificant when taking into picture the history of time.
*sigh*.....my emails....*whimpers*

la dee da~

wow...haven't blogged in like...more than 2 months!
it's almost the end of my coop term~ one more day! and i haven't even done my coop report!
so many pple leaving, so many goodbyes...i don't like this...

i know i'm clumsy and all, and trip all over the place, but today, man....today, that was a first ;P i tripped right in front of the commissioner's desk~
i was in a daze walking towards the electronic door, fishing for my id pass and then next thing i know, i was hugging the metal box....and one of the security officer was looking right at me too... -_-'' gotta be careful... ><
anyway, posted some pics :P