Dig dig dig

This Sunday I went to a diff church….Celebration Centre~ at carp~ a friend invited us to their church cuz there was this prophetic singer that is leading worship plus speaking~ it was very different…for sure~ there was just so much energy and the whole place was full of joy~ everyone was free to do whatever they want~ during worship, there were people dancing…there were pple waving colored flags….there were pple kneeling on the ground praying…there were people praising the Lord with raised hands…pple, just enjoying the presence of the Spirit.
I’m on the shy on side…I know it and God knows it, and I wondered what my personality would bring me to do when one day I see Jesus face to face….that song… “I can only imagine” where it talks about the artist wondering what he’d do when he sees Jesus face to face…I think the only thing I’d do when I do get the privilege…is break down and cry. And the reason I figger that…is cuz that’s what happened on Sunday…when merely the Spirit of the Lord roams around….when the second song started, I suddenly felt a burst of feelings all coming out at once, and tears flooded me…I don’t know why I cried, I really don’t know…but I just felt an overwhelming sensation sweeping over me….and I couldn’t do anything, but cry….and cry and cry…and it felt good….but then I feel ashamed…there are many times in my life where I’m in a place so full of the Spirit of the Lord…where I’m so taken aback and so awed by His mere presence…but in reality, they’re really all just spiritual high…where it peaks, and dissolves day by day…what I’m ashamed of…is that all my life I’ve darted around the desert admiring other people’s well….and when they’re kind enough to share the wealth, I get amazed at how refreshing the water can be…then after a few days, I forget the taste of it again…then go darting around the desert….all over again…
I want to dig my own well…I want to keep digging…

……..keep digging…

……………………keep digging…

……………..keep digging…

…until I can find a well and call it my own.

And drink from it…
……….and share from it…
……………..for today,
……………………for tomorrow……….forever…