the butterfly in my tummy is playing with swords!

I don’t know if I should laugh or cry...
I’ve realized today, that unconsciously, I can make myself physically sick through psychological effect….if that makes any sense at all….there’s the saying “butterfly in my stomach” when pple are nervous….well, I’ve taken a step further….it’s quite funny cuz I never really developed this until this past few years :P I found out…that when I’m nervous, my tummy will protest….to the point that it can convince me that I’m really sick…therefore not do whatever I’m about to do ;P it’s true! It’s sad…this Sunday nite was such an occasion…I was going to go to something that I’m really really REALLY nervous about. And my stomach protested…at first it was just a little butterfly…but then I soon found out that butterfly turned into a serpent…it felt like someone jabbed a sword into my side, then s-l-o-w-l-y pulls it out….then again, then s-l-o-w-l-y pulls out….than again!....and it kept going…and it was so unbearable…to the point that the only thing I can do was to cry out in my head “Lord have mercy on me!” if I hadn’t know about this “trend” I woulda seriously consider the possibility of something broken inside of me…….*shudder* …I hope I’ll grow out of it…